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to never let you go, i held to pieces of you
the pieces destroyed the beauty in me
the unbeauty of it made me angry
n words made me cry
n laughter came along
to keep my pieces intact
it held the key to heel my woes
it made sense to let go and let be
it made sense to live and not leave
i heard the bells which were there atlast
to pave a way for something better
to lead me to a new tomorrow

Dont you think each one of us live for that moment in life… In which we can exclaim WOW that was unexpected..
That stupendous thing which will scratch our brain and make us less cocky of ourselves. The moments which will clearly define ourselves human but not the useless, brainless people but the ones who have a high moral ground and unselfish….
There is a unique person in each one of us who wants to experience something completely out of the ordinary… Which can reinforce our beliefs in the humankind again. We keep looking for it and that makes us cocky and distant… But each one of us remains hopeful that one day they will be the spectators of something that will be literary mindblowing …hope … That remains.
Who will be the chosen one to experience this remains to be seen.

I feel a little weird these days… About how my feelings for people change…maybe there are some people around me who change… Which forces me to change. I really dont want to… But there is a changed attitude towards them… Its like we dont belong together as we used to. He was my alter ego.. My buddy… Maybe one of the best friends i ever had… N now i dont feel that affection towards him… People always leave in my life and they never come back.. Its a circle i am trapped in…. N now he is going to leave me forever… That will hurt but maybe not that much as when we will live in the same cities and lose our friendship and affection. Its so simple and yet so complicated… N maybe this is the reality we all grapple in our lives everyday… Of using and being used by people.

There is a lightness in the air, a heaviness in the heart and a loneliness in the eyes. She is free at last of being in love, of waiting for him. She is free of him at last. The heart is a weird mass of shit. It cant stay free for a little while. It wants to be replaced periodically of its inhabitants. It desires someone new. So who do you replace it with. Someone completely different or the one who will again break your heart and split into million pieces. I heard Human beings learn… Do they??? Broken people will get attracted to similar species…. With whom they dont have any prospects…

when living is the only way out.. when forgetting is the only way u can live when losing is not an option when fear has no place when love is not foun

This is the story of a girl who fell in love and took it as it came. She thought love was hard and lets live in the moment. She never realized about the hurt and the pain which come along with the moments of fun. Or she never really imagined she would fall for the guy who was the complete opposite to what she was. She believed she will live with him and enjoy whatever time she spent with him and never think about the future coz “there is no future”. She was wrong… Infact so wrong that she couldnt believe the amount of pain she felt when he left. She didnt ask for him to come back..she wanted to forget him and move on in life… coz she was in love with him and he wasnt and that hurt her more than anything… coz she never realized it would hurt that much. Now they live in different cities and she misses him… mayb she never realised how much she messed with her life when she allowed to keep their relationship casual and without expectations. She expects from him and she wants him to love her back like the way she loves him. She is hurt, lost and confused coz she believed in a perfect world, in a perfect love and she has still got faith.

She believes miracles can happen and she wants him to come back to her coz she cant live without him. Is it too much to ask for love ? Is it too hard to get in this world? She is a dreamer and she dreams of him. She cries for him but her tears are meaningless coz he is a realist and he doesnt love me

Its funny sometimes the journeys bring you back to the place you started… i mean literally. 24 and lost… I think there are so many of us on that place and looking our way across. So what comes to the mind… we are losing and losing it big. Some of us just started on the journey, struck in a wrong relationship, a wrong job and a wrong place. But how do we know its a wrong place, job or person? Coz the last time I checked it wasnt meant to be all rosy and frolic.

A ride out with friends, seeing them in jobs you are not, in relationships not in the same stature as yours… life can pull us down. But we dont know their stories… dammit we dont know our stories. A talk with a friend made sense.. The Law of attraction by Rhonda… we need to focus on the positive aspects of our lives.. to get positivity and optimism in them.